So first of all I just want to apologize because this post contains all the things I wanna say to 'him' and it is quite long . I'm sorry if I annoy you by posting this love letter . I just want to share bout how / what I feel and I just hope you'll understand me . I promise this will be the only love letter entry in my blog . Just this time . I promise . Double promise.

Dear someone I love ,

From the first time I met you , I know you'll be the one who will light up my world . Whenever I think of you , I realized I was smiling. When I see you my body trembles with joy and my heart beats wildly in my chest. I love the way your eyes literally shine , how your nose adorably moves when you say certain words and how kind and loving you are to those you care for.

I remember the first day I met you . I didn't even have a second to wonder. The sparkle in your eyes was equivalent to a million stars. The way you talk and stare totally make me fall faster and harder then I ever have in my life, took me in and swept me away . And by that time , I believed in first sight love.

Every seconds , every minutes and every hours you'll always be the main character in my life , my mind and my dreams . You're one of the reasons why I love school . I love to see you laughing with your friends. When I see you I could stare at you for ages and not blink. And what I love the most is , I feel you're always by my side and near me . When I'm alone on my bed, I think about you and my heart aches because I just want to hold you close and protect you and have you protect me .

I've no idea how to make you feel my love . The only thing that I want is for you to know that I will always love you. I want to be part of your life for now and forever. That's a big promise to make when we're in this age, but it's true. There is no possible way for me to justify this unless you get inside me and feel what I feel for you.  I could spend my entire life just to learn what you love and what you hate just to commit it to memory so I won't ever have to second guess myself when I do something for you.

I can feel defeat, why can't I sleep ? Why does my throat close whenever you speak ? My heart breaks just to be around you. My eyes directed down when your gaze falls upon me, that bashful smile... I want you so badly ! This tension, it kills me. My unspoken attraction is enough to fill up volumes.

I'm too shy to talk to you . And because of that , I lost alot of opportunities. But I think it feels safer keeping my mouth shut then hearing the rejection. You have taken up residence in my mind. Everytime I think of you I can feel the butterflies fluttering inside me.

Trust me , I love you like no one could love anyone else. I want to be the person you confide in, your love, your friend, your enemy, your soul, you heart and yours. I want you to be mine. I want to have a claim to you that no one else can ever have because you're mine. Forever mine.

But when I sit here watching the sun set into the horizon, I know you'll never be mine . You would never want me. I'm not perfect, beautiful, or anything important. I have to let you go . And all the dreams will just be dreams. But , remember one thing , I love you and will always love you.